Catching up

Like I said in my last post, it was a very busy summer. Did a lot of things and rode a very emotional roller coaster.  I say I trust in Him and have complete faith in Him, but sometimes I do slip into my human nature.  He understands, He created me.  He knows all of my weaknesses and my strengths.  He will stand beside me and hold me up when I ask, even when I don't ask and sometimes He allows me to fall and wallow in my weakness.  I did some wallowing this summer. It was not fun and it did not change any of the circumstances of my life. So often I have said to a person that God designed something in or for his/her life at their conception. Now I am having to live that truth in my own life. God designed it. I do not like it, but he designed it. I cannot change it. I can trust Him and I do try, every day. When all is said and done, we will continue.  Her grace and beauty will shine on as a true testimony of Faith and Trust. She will be always be mine and a part of me.

My life mantra has been Acts 16:31.  It tells me to believe in the Lord Jesus Christ. If I do, I will be saved and also my household.  I have believed.  I do believe.  I have seen salvation in most of my family.  He did not tell me that salvation would come in my lifetime, just that it would come. I praise Him that he led her into salvation and that she will one day sit at his right hand.  How terrifying this journey would be if He were not walking this path with us.  Yes, I BELIEVE and so does she.

I lost it. I lost my desire to blog.

I did not want to, It just happened.  I have sat down to write something so many times, but nothing flows.  It seems the joy is gone.  I want it back.  I want to keep up with all of my "cyber" friends, and all of my real friends.  I want to hear about your babies, your happy days and your hard days.  Blogging to me was like sitting out on my front porch visiting with friends on a summer's eve.  It was fun, it was fulfilling, it was gossip and sometimes there were tears shed for a friend who was struggling.  More often than not, there was a heartfelt prayer sent up.  For a friend awaiting the adoption of her second baby. The friend whose little girl struggles with a sick heart. The friend who lost a baby girl to a cord accident, while her twin brother survived. Coming back here a few days ago to find this same friend has now given birth to two little girls after a very long time on bedrest. I kept her in my prayers along with all of the other special needs of so many people whilst I was "gone". I want to come back.  I hope I can.  I have had a very busy summer and I want to share it with you.  I have also been overwhelmed by life.  I may share that with you too. But for now, I will just say, I have missed all of you.  I think I will go read a few blogs and see if I can reconnect