Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Today

I went to my mother's house for the first time.  It was a good thing for me to do.  I fixed dinner for my brothers.  One had told me that dinnertime is so lonesome for him.  I swept and mopped the kitchen and dining room floors.  Putzed around, dug through a few things.  I am not really ready to do any major digging yet though. Actually, I felt a little like I was intruding in things that were not my business.  Things I had never seen and she had not mentioned.  I found one little mystery but I put it back.  I will look at it again, later.
I sat in her chair and smelled her, I cried, not as much as I thought I would though.  I am thinking I might go there once a week for a while.  Fixing dinner for my brothers is therapeutic for me too.  I used to have dinner ready when I would leave in the afternoon.
I miss her, I wake up every morning planning what I need to do for her on that day.  Then, I remember.

3 comments:

Frizzy said...

Wow! Today was a big day. I'm proud of you for taking such a big and difficult step. What a wonderful way to spend time together and continue serving your family. I bet they'll enjoy your dinner dates and your mom would be thrilled.

P.S. I bet it would feel wierd being in her house and going through her things w/o her. I'm still praying for you all Evy.

Becky said...

One day (or week) at a time, Evy. You will know when the time is right. Sending you ((HUGS))!

Karin @ 6ByHisDesign said...

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}

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